Expression: Day One

ومن يتهيّب صعود الجبال يعش ابداالدهربين الحفر

Those who are afraid to climb the mountains will remain in the ditches forever.



This is the first expression we learned in Bayyinah. Truly it is the most inspiring expression and important first step to begin the journey as It puts you in the right mind-set to start this crucial course. This expression was undoubtedly the most motivational quote for me as it turned on some kind of internal switch  which alerted me that I need to  keep going. You can’t stop at any point. If you are afraid of climbing then ditches will become your destiny forever. If water remains stagnant it will begin to develop a stench at a place for a long time then it will start stinking. If the body doesn’t move then it will become sluggish and deprived.  By fitrah, humans are born to explore, they desire to discover, to seek and to search. Once you deviate from your natural disposition then the soul starts starving and longing for something it was originally created for.Once this natural disposition is butchered then life becomes shallow and hollow. Therefore, it is vital that we realize our potential and maximize it rather than stalling thereby starving our energy. The take away message from this remarkable expression is to keep going, keep moving forward and not undermine  your inner potential. If you fear to dream then the fear of heights and phobias  will cripple you. To overcome your fears and phobias you must step out of your comfort zone  and this requires courage. Courage is mustered by destroying all false and self-created barriers within one’s self and one’s surrounding. Essentially, the key is to keep striving, keep struggling and keep going. Once you overcome the fears and dilemmas sitting in the path of your destination, then your path will be enlightened and equipped. Once this happens, then the doors of unlimited potential and powers are unlocked. This is the desired goal of our existence.So keep learning and never limit yourself.


Visit to the Grave yard


Recently I had the chance to visit the graveyard which left me an indelible mark on my soul and my perception. As I was walking through the graveyard, I noticed that almost all the graves had tombstones on which the names and the dates of birth and death of the deceased were ingrained.  One particular engraving captured my attention. Under the name of the deceased was engraved ‘Ph.D’. The moment I saw it, a series of questions whirled through my mind. I couldn’t process this information. Something inside me was shaken. What was the reason behind writing these words? Why did they choose to engrave this title on the deceased’s tombstone? Was it to impress visitors?  Was it the wish of the deceased?  Or was it something that gives the deceased and others a sense of achievement or satisfaction?   My mind couldn’t comprehend what good and honor this degree held at that moment. Would you really enjoy your merits at this time?  Was there any worth to this degree if this is not any beneficial for others?  Instantly, my thoughts shifted to the concept of ongoing charity in Islam. My heart couldn’t appreciate the beauty of our religion which teaches us how to continue our charity even if you are not alive. How to keep reaping the fruits of your labor even when you don’t exist.

Most precisely, in our religion like everything has a purpose, knowledge also serves a higher purpose. It is just not limited to just titles and degrees and some worldly achievement yet it can only bear fruits if we spend it wisely and for the purpose of benefiting  mankind. That Ph. D doesn’t mean anything if it is just meant to be written on our tombstones once we pass away. It can truly leave a lasting mark  if we make our knowledge worthwhile, make it ever lasting by teaching it to others and spending it in the most productive manner. Imagine if all those days of hard work, endless efforts, and sleepless nights earned us nothing but mere recognition of Ph. D or M.D or an engineer or a  hafiz or a Sheikh or an Imam. Was that the real purpose behind all these struggles?

It is true that in today we have numerous prestigious titles, knowledgeable people and encyclopedias but the stark reality is, there are very few who have taken their knowledge to the next level.There are only handful of people who make their knowledge ever lasting which is the essence of our religion. Ironically, we may observe  that not  a single particle is wasted in our ecosystem yet there is an abundance of knowledge and information that remain meaningless and worthless.  Since when has the purpose of knowledge been merely to display a fancy and prestigious name tag when you are six feet under?

That leads  to the fact that what legacy  we all are leaving behind?  Is it our wealth, talent or knowledge?  These verses of Surah Yaseen beautifully captures the idea in these words:

Indeed, it is We who bring the dead to life and record what they have put forth and what they left behind, and all things We have enumerated in a clear register.



In the graveyard, I also noticed loved ones coming and bringing flowers for their deceased beloved. Some were even watering the graves with tears rolling down their cheeks. Were they under the assumption that this water might give their deceased some sort of peace and coolness under the piles of debris and dust ? Others were decorating the graves with bouquets of colorful flowers.  This left me with a lingering question. What does this dead person really need at that moment?  Will the water and fragrance of the beautiful roses, colorful tulips and delightful daisies reach the lifeless body or is there something more eternal, endless and  pure which the soul desires?

Zindagi aik Saraab

Zindagi na khusyoon ka mela hai na gam ka basera

kabhi raat bhut lambi kabhi din taro taaza hai

kabhi zindagi ki lehron may bapana tughyani hia

to kabhi usi samandar ki gahrayoon may gehri khamoshi hai

yeh gham aur khusiyoon ki ankh machooli har shaks ki

chand lamho ki yeh gardaan phir aik nai duniya basani hia

janay kiyon kar insaan dahal jaata hia , saham jaata hai

jab koi apna waqt ki tapish talay jhulas diya jaata hai.

in hadson ka dohrahay par khud ko sametna aasan nahi

jab manzilain roth jain to rah guzar ko khangalna asan nahi

par baray nazuk diya bhi tund hawaon may lar jatay hai

rait kay bareek zarray bhi ankhon  ko bay noor kiya jaatay hai

pani kai haqeer qatray bhi patheron may nishaan chor jaatay hai

yeh samandar kaa talatum talkhiyon ki khalish,yeh din o raat ki rawish

Anjaan Rastay, Ajnabi lamhau yeh Paigham diya jaatay hai

Nazuk Diya bhi tund hawaon say lar jaatay hai


زندگی نہ خو شیوں کا میلہ نہ غم کا پسیرا ہے

کبھی رات بہت لمبی تو کبھی دن  تروتازہ ہے

کبھی زندگی کی  لہروں میں بےپناہ طغیانی ہے

تو کبھی انہی لہروں کی گہراءیوں می بلا کی خاموشی ہے

غم ااور خوشی کی يہ آنکھ مچولی ہر شخص کی سہیلی ہے

چند لمحوں کی ہے یہ داستاں پھراک نئ دنیا بسانی ہے

جانے کیوں ہر انساں د ہل جاتا ہے سہم جاتا ہے

جب کوئ اپنا وقت کی تپش تلے جھلسا دیا جاتا ہے

      جب امیدوں  کا ہر راستہ ویران نظر آتا ہے

ان حادثوں کے دہراءے پر خود کو سمیٹنا آسان نہیں

جب منزلیں روٹھ جائیں تو راه کی خاک چهاننا آساں نہیں

                                                            جب امیدیں ٹوٹ جائیں تو دل کو منانا آسان نہیں

 پر اس جہاں میں جب ریت کے باریک زرے بهی آنکهوں کو بے نور کیے جاتے  ہیں

       پانی کے بے مول قطرے بهی پتهروں پے نشاں چهوڑ جا تے هیں

انجان رستے،ان کہے لمحے یہ پیغام دیے جاتے  ہیں

   بڑے نازک د يے  بهی تند ہواوں سے لڑ جاتے ہیں

If I can go back

My past cannot be retrievable, cannot be reversible

 the imprints are still there, which determines my story

 it  determines who I am, it doesn’t seems like a fairy tale

I wish I can go back once and pick up the crumbs of ifs and buts

the  chants of complains and nuisance of negativity

the uproars  of hopelessness and discomforts of despair

the burden of countless expectations from myself and others

the world became a gloomy and lonely place for years

the positivity seems to shatter, the true passion disappeared

the wave of darkness overcame the joys and cheers

the circle of trust was weakened, the hopes and dreams shattered

life was meaningless, clueless, worthless, and senseless

why it happened what  was the reason behind all this distress

may be it was the lack of trust on the Lord

may be it was too much trust on one own’s self

may be it was the shackles of  ingratitude leaving me heartless and cold

may be the reward of every hardship in the hereafter was forgotten

may the real purpose of this life was stolen by the glitters of this world

then I realized that the Lord never burdens the soul what it can’t bear

He is with you, He holds you, He calms you , He is always there  for youhhhope

His words gives you hope,  His remembrance gives you peace

He never  leaves you alone, his decisions are always fair

no matter how harsh and hurtful this life can be

if you are patient, the everlasting joys are yours to share.

The True Happiness


The year 2013 ended with a profound message. Going to ICNA Convention in the end was definitely  a good reminder.The year end message was greatly needed to uplift the weary soul and replenish the Islamic spirit. All the lectures were not only targeted to improve our relationship in the family and in the larger society but were loud and clear to improve at an individual and the community level .But some how I was not shaken to the core with any of the lectures I was hearing for two days. Those lectures were definitely a good reminder but not something I was looking for, some thing I needed to move my soul and to inspire me so much that it is sufficient enough to face the challenges of the upcoming year, until the last lecture of the night was delivered by Omer Suleiman. As soon as he started,  I felt that every word of him was directed towards me. I felt like each of his sentences were like an arrow tearing my heart into pieces. I wanted to write each and every part of the lecture but the way lecture was started, I was so much absorbed with the message and truth in it that my fingers couldn’t bear the pain of my guilty pleasures. The burden of my sins seemed to fall over my fingers as they seems to be frozen. The worth mentioning part was of his speech was about the blind person sitting on the stage who just finished reciting ayahs from the Quran and giggling and chuckling. Everyone was mesmerized with his voice and surprised at the same time how the blind person can memorize Quran. Hence, Omer Suleiman started his speech with the reflection of this blind man saying, “Did you see this blind man he can’t see but he has eyes and we all have eyes and we are blind.” This simple sentence contain so much depth and lesson that I couldn’t think of anything else, the speech was going on further, how happy he is, he can’t see the world but the stage was filled with his laughter and joy. What made him so happy despite his disability, what makes him so content and satisfied which we can’t experience even though we are blessed with all the faculties. Definitely and truly it was the light of Quran he has memorized the Quran which has filled his heart and the whole atmosphere surrounded by him and on the other hand our hearts are filled with filth and worldly things so much that the darkness overcomes all our blessings thus pushing us and everyone around us in the shadows of despair and discontentment.

What a strong message it carried. It made me think really that is real happiness. In today’s world how each one of us is searching for true happiness, real contentment, satisfaction and the true meaning of life but why we are continuously failing, why we can’t grasp the fact  that happiness is something inside us not  hidden in outside material gains. It doesn’t reside in so called degrees, gadgets, name brand clothing, eating, dining and shopping. That blind man who can not see the glittering and shimmering of the world, can’t enjoy the glamour of marketplaces, yet his heart is enlightened with the intense and supreme light ” nur” of the words of the Almighty. Does he need anything else? Does he care for any other glow? no but he was ready to shine the world and every one around him whose hearts were either dead or searching for that true meaning of happiness through all other artificial means.

The speaker carried on the same message that how we lose the true sense of happiness. His words made so much sense when he said, “if you depend on fragile things your life will be fragile.” This is such a short sentence but if we contemplate on it then our soul can withstand the strongest storms. We won’t be shattered and smashed by the attitude and actions of people. Our goals and objectives were not weakened by the ruthless and reckless emotions of others. These fragile means make our outlook fragile, our vision vulnerable, our entire perspective shaky. We can’t depend on these unreliable sources of happiness to provide contentment to our life. In fact, we can only depend on the most dependable and reliable source, the most pure and promising light, the light of His words, the strongest and everlasting ‘Quran’.

And is one who was dead and We gave him life and made for him light by which to walk among the people like one who is in darkness, never to emerge therefrom? Thus it has been made pleasing to the disbelievers that which they were doing.

Omar, Suleiman.(2013, Dec 27).Pursuit of Happiness. Address at the ICNA Convention, Atlanta, Georgia.

Shades of life

With all the happiness and cheers which creates charm and magnetism with the first ray of sunlight, the very same light can be filled with trauma and tragedy. That gesture of happiness and bliss can be transformed into moment of sorrow and catastrophe. In the morning, while the soft subtle powdery snowflake refreshes your mind and soul, the whole world from snow covered trees, shrubs, twigs and leaves dance around you and sing the song of your choice, the day is filled with these precious memories of joy and delight, every moment spent in celebration of the first snowfall is cherished until a calamity struck which changes the whole outlook of the same day. The joy was transformed into a day of sorrow. The mind was unable to comprehend what happened. A minute ago the world was a place of pleasure and play the very next second it was no more than a dismay and distress. The shades of harshness and unjust overcome the surroundings. For a second it feels that life is so unfair. Why we can’t remain in the same state of happiness and joy forever, why the la laa land didn’t last forever. Why an unseen calamity had to shatter our hopes and dreams for the day but then ultimately something reminds me that we all are helpless in front of Almighty. The way he rotates day and night, the same way he rotates our good and bad times and we just have to obey him in the time of happiness and pain. Our rationale questions us why and why me but our believes correct us that Allah is Al Wise Al Hakeem. He can never be wrong. He do things for a purpose and as a slave we have to obey him no matter how unreasonable it seems to us, one has to understand that our moods and emotions are also in His hands. He can bless us bliss with the pure and sensational beauty of snowfall and He is the one whom we turned to when we are faced with intense agony and discomfort. The book remind us
Chapter (53) sūrah Najm (The Star)


                                                                                                                              And that it is He who makes [one] laugh and weep
It is important to remember that at these times we have a daily reminder, our guide our Book which hold us in the dire circumstances, which shows us how to hold Urwatul Wuskaa in both times. In the past, prophets have been crushed in the turmoil of crisis of their lifetime. Similarly we will also be crumbled and cut among the fierce waves of brutal momentsbench_snowfall_winter_lamp_light_precipitation_park_61277_1920x1080.
From the story of Yusuf being alone in the well to Musa’s upbringing in the most cruel King’s palace, from Yunus cries in the utter darkness to Ibrahim’s severe trial of his son and father, life is a bumpy ride with its ups and down. When we are up, life is beautiful but when we are down, life is gloomy and dark. But if we remember that life is a test, and our tests are nothing as compare to the people of the past then this life will seem to be like a smooth and sleek ride. The Quran remind us:


 Or do you think that you will enter Paradise while such [trial] has not yet come to you as came to those who passed on before you? They were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until [even their] messenger and those who believed with him said,”When is the help of Allah ?” Unquestionably, the help of Allah is near.

Rada bil Qadr


Many times in our lives we have to face some very cruel and harsh circumstances. At that time life really seems unfair. No matter how strong you pose externally, the internal flawed fibers of weaken emaan give birth to tons of unanswered questions. No matter how often and how many times you try to aviod the pricking of those unknown why or why nots, life still become a question mark to you. Your mind convinces you that you have to believe on one of the pillars of faith i.e. taqdir. To accept His decisions and to be content with them is a required part of our faith. We know that Allah is Al Wise, He is more merciful than our mother, He is our rab, our protector, our planner and our nourisher. He can never do anything wrong for us. But still there are some outcomes we are not satisfied with or even if we accept it there is always a slight clinch that why it happened to me or why it is happening to me? where did I go wrong? what did I do to suffer from all these pains and pressures. Why I am always the victim of everyone’s taunts and tantrums? Is it that we are not willingly accepting the decisions of our Lord. Is it we associating partners with Allah when making our intellect and rational to be more reasonable than the Al Mighty. How can we justify all these feelings? This is where the weakness of eman and sickness of heart peeks in and slowly and gradually push ourselves to the never ending cycle of doubts and desires i.e. ‘shubhaat and shahwaat’. We need to realize the fact that when He created us, He knows us very well. He knows us when we were not even ready to take the first breath. Still how can we think that he can be irrational in his decisions.

Does He who created not know, while He is the Subtle, the Acquainted?

But the question is how do I convince myself, how do I make sure that I’m not constantly complaining and whining about the trials and tests life is keep throwing at me. Most of the time, our lives seem like a unsolvable puzzle but only He knows that how these parts can fit together to make the perfect picture. Life can be really rough sometimes, people will be playing with our sentiments and will drain us emotionally, sqeezing every drop of humanness within us but we have to beleive that the rough roars of the ocean can calm down when they come to the shore. Surely, sometimes the tides of troubles seem unbearable, everything seems to be haphazard like a messy painting, each and every corner of our lives need to be fixed, even our friends, family everyone we come across with is a Fitnah constant trial for us but in the midst of all these uncertainties, Quran assures us:

O mankind, indeed you are laboring toward your Lord with [great] exertion and will meet it.

During that strenuous physical and mental exertion, if the acceptance of Allah’s decisions will not prevail in our hearts and Nafs, then the purpose of Abd Allah will be defeated. In return, the desired destination every abd deserved and dreamt of, will only remain a dream. To make this dream a reality, we need to overcome all our inner hurdles and hesitations. We need to start strengthening our roots of eman and taqwa. It can never happen without Allah’s help so we need to make our relationship stronger and special to the extent that we can be among those mentioned in the following verses.

[To the righteous it will be said], “O reassured soul
Return to your Lord, well-pleased and pleasing [to Him]
And enter among My [righteous] servants
And enter My Paradise.