Many times in our lives we have to face some very cruel and harsh circumstances. At that time life really seems unfair. No matter how strong you pose externally, the internal flawed fibers of weaken emaan give birth to tons of unanswered questions. No matter how often and how many times you try to aviod the pricking of those unknown why or why nots, life still become a question mark to you. Your mind convinces you that you have to believe on one of the pillars of faith i.e. taqdir. To accept His decisions and to be content with them is a required part of our faith. We know that Allah is Al Wise, He is more merciful than our mother, He is our rab, our protector, our planner and our nourisher. He can never do anything wrong for us. But still there are some outcomes we are not satisfied with or even if we accept it there is always a slight clinch that why it happened to me or why it is happening to me? where did I go wrong? what did I do to suffer from all these pains and pressures. Why I am always the victim of everyone’s taunts and tantrums? Is it that we are not willingly accepting the decisions of our Lord. Is it we associating partners with Allah when making our intellect and rational to be more reasonable than the Al Mighty. How can we justify all these feelings? This is where the weakness of eman and sickness of heart peeks in and slowly and gradually push ourselves to the never ending cycle of doubts and desires i.e. ‘shubhaat and shahwaat’. We need to realize the fact that when He created us, He knows us very well. He knows us when we were not even ready to take the first breath. Still how can we think that he can be irrational in his decisions.
Does He who created not know, while He is the Subtle, the Acquainted?
But the question is how do I convince myself, how do I make sure that I’m not constantly complaining and whining about the trials and tests life is keep throwing at me. Most of the time, our lives seem like a unsolvable puzzle but only He knows that how these parts can fit together to make the perfect picture. Life can be really rough sometimes, people will be playing with our sentiments and will drain us emotionally, sqeezing every drop of humanness within us but we have to beleive that the rough roars of the ocean can calm down when they come to the shore. Surely, sometimes the tides of troubles seem unbearable, everything seems to be haphazard like a messy painting, each and every corner of our lives need to be fixed, even our friends, family everyone we come across with is a Fitnah constant trial for us but in the midst of all these uncertainties, Quran assures us:
O mankind, indeed you are laboring toward your Lord with [great] exertion and will meet it.
During that strenuous physical and mental exertion, if the acceptance of Allah’s decisions will not prevail in our hearts and Nafs, then the purpose of Abd Allah will be defeated. In return, the desired destination every abd deserved and dreamt of, will only remain a dream. To make this dream a reality, we need to overcome all our inner hurdles and hesitations. We need to start strengthening our roots of eman and taqwa. It can never happen without Allah’s help so we need to make our relationship stronger and special to the extent that we can be among those mentioned in the following verses.
[To the righteous it will be said], “O reassured soul
Return to your Lord, well-pleased and pleasing [to Him]
And enter among My [righteous] servants
And enter My Paradise.